Asexual Awareness Week: Guest Post by Jordan S. Brock

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It’s already the last day of Asexual Awareness Week; it went by so fast!
We’re really excited to have Jordan S. Brock, author of Change of Address on From Top to Bottom Reviews! She’s here to talk about her WIP, that will feature a kinky ace! We think it sounds awesome and can’t wait to read it! 

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Kevin Brooks and his twin sister, Rebekkah, were young teens when they headed off to MIT. Geniuses with math and computers, they had trouble fitting in. Rebekkah adapted, but as soon as Kevin turned eighteen, he dropped out and went on a journey to Europe and Israel to discover his family’s heritage.

His parents attributed his drastic decision to his genius; they tended to be odd, didn’t they? His aunts and uncles and cousins made unkind assumptions because he was Deaf. Rebekkah — his closest confidante — guessed it was because he was gay. She came the closest to the truth, but it would take Kevin years of travel, experimentation, and navigating the unseen paths of his own desire to figure out that he was something he’d never guessed could be possible: asexual and kinky, all at once.

Growing up, his make-believe games always seemed to end with him playing the villain who captured and tied up superheroes awaiting rescue or the cop who arrested and handcuffed the bad guys. Later, despite the age difference between the twins and their classmates, he took charge of his circle of friends when it came to deciding where to go and what to do.

He projected an aura of confidence that masked his inner doubts. While everyone else was talking about girls (or, in a few cases, boys) and their bodies and what they’d like to do with them, he was still caught up in memories of his childhood make-believe games. As he and Rebekkah were catapulted ahead of their classmates into college at a too-early age, he came to one conclusion: he was different.

“Broken” is the word a lot of aces use to describe themselves in the terrifying years before they realize asexuality is something that doesn’t just happen to single-celled organisms. It’s what I used to describe myself. Even now, coming up on 47 years old, I still have that instinct — that deep-down feeling that something inside me is wrong or abnormal.

But it’s not. Not for me and not for Kevin, even though both of us are also kinky.

There’s no umbrella that covers all people who identify as asexual. For me — and therefore for Kevin, who’s my mirror in this regard — asexuality manifests as the utter lack of desire to have sex or any sort of intimate contact at all. Some aces may experience sexual attraction, but only after a deep emotional connection. Still others enjoy the act of sex but don’t look at someone and think, “Wow, I’d like to [insert sex act here] with that person!”

When most kids are growing up and experiencing sexual attraction for the first time, a lot of aces feel left out. They wait for “it” to happen to them — for a switch to flip so they can actually feel whatever mystery all their friends are experiencing. And if it doesn’t happen? If that switch doesn’t flip? Well, people can be cruel to anyone who doesn’t fit with the world’s idea of “normal” — and we tend to be even more cruel to ourselves.

In the years before the book starts, Kevin faked his way through relationships. He thought he might be bisexual, then homosexual, but the “sex” part never worked out for him unless there was kink involved. Power exchange, bondage, even a little S&M were all great as far as he was concerned, with no need for any messy sex to clutter up the experience. He was even fine with using sexual release as an incentive or reward for the men who subbed for him, though he rarely bothered with it for himself. It was a whole lot more fun for him to watch their self-control shatter, for him to take them somewhere they couldn’t go by themselves, to share that experience with them.

The book begins with Kevin’s return to the United States from Israel, just as his sister is selling her programming company to a massive government defense contractor. Since she’s taking a VP position with this mega-corporation, she’s got to go through a background check, and Kevin’s moving in with her throws a wrench into the works. A field team is sent to do a quick investigation of Kevin and figure out why he left the US in the first place, what he was doing in Europe and Israel, and if there was a nefarious reason for his return to the country just as his sister stood to gain access to all sorts of government secrets or if he just felt it was time to come home.

And when the surveillance team observes Kevin going into a gay nightclub on kink night, what else can they do but send in one of their members to follow him?

Thanks to fellow aces Kara, Leigh, Priscilla, and Kaelan for their input!

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Jordan Brock NOH8Jordan Brock is the author of CHANGE OF ADDRESS, a story of love, trust, delicious food, and an extremely tolerant service dog. In her spare time, she goes on adventures with her own service dog, Bucky, and writes fanfic under the name Kryptaria.

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And because it’s too cute not to share too:

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If you want to know more about asexuality or have questions, we’d advice you to check out AVEN. The Asexual Visibility and Education Network, which we found really helpful.

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